Just enjoying the kids

Today is a rainy cold spring day. Unusual for this time of year. But today has also been a great day. I took D on a sales call with me and she was a dream....for a toddler. We finished early so the two of us went to lunch. While we were sitting there it struck me how rarely I do this with her. With my son we went to lunch all the time, now it seems we are always running from one thing to another. I guess it seems that way, because it's true! So it was nice to have this rare lunch date. Now she is sleeping and her brother is playing and I am trying to get some work done.
It is days like this that I treasure being a mom.

Even years latter---- the pain is still there

Today I got an email from a friend saying she had a miscarriage. I started to cry. She is not a good friend and I only knew about the pregnancy because I had bumped into her out and about. But the pain she felt is still so familiar. I think you never get over that loss. In my case I was only 6 weeks pregnant when I had my miscarriage, yet the pain is still so real. It is a loss no matter what, for that fact, it's a loss every month when you pee on the stick and watch only one line show up.

The idea of going for number three has drifted into my mind now that my baby girl is getting big, but when I hear news like this I know I can not go through it again. Besides the fact that medically I probably couldn't have a third, the emotional aspect is something I know I can't ever go through again.

Time to go hug the kids.

The very first post

Ever since I experienced secondary infertility, I have wanted to talk about it. When you are infertile with a child, you find yourself in a truly unique position. It is hard to find compassion from the women who are still waiting for their first child, yet your fellow mommy friends truly don't get what you are going through.

When I found out I wasn't going to 'just get pregnant' it was truly a shock. I had to take a few doses of clomid to conceive the first time, but my Dr. thought that once my body knew what it was doing I would be fine for subsequent pregnancies. HA HA HA

So this is my blog, what I went through, how I did conceive, and life for me now. I love to give my friends tons of useless advice, and I love to talk about infertility. So this blog will consist of a lot of both!

Also, I truly believe that it was talking to other women, the advice I received from them, as well as the resources they sent my way, that led to my second pregnancy.

So welcome to my blog!

-CC